I've made up my mind
No need to think it over
If I'm wrong I ain't right
No need to look no further
This ain't lust
This is love but
If I tell the world
I'll never say enough
Because it was not said to you
And that's exactly what I need to do
If I'm in love with you
Should I give up
Or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere
Or would it be a waste
Even if I knew my place should I leave it there?
Should I give up
Or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
I'd build myself up
And fly around in circles
Wait then as my heart drops
And my back begins to tingle
Finally could this be it
Should I give up
Or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere
Or would it be a waste
Even if I knew my place should I leave it there?
Should I give up
Or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Should I give up
Or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere
Or would it be a waste
Even if I knew my place should I leave it there?
Should I give up
Or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
A Bitter Repost
This is a repost from a friend's blog. Her entry caught my attention for two reasons: (1) I love its rawness. I love the idea of pouring out your thoughts uncensored into writing, thus, serving the purpose of expression. (2) I feel her.
for you.
I received your message a while ago. At first, it made me think if I should open your sms or it would be better to erase it without reading. I should have done the latter. Maybe it would have saved our friendship.
Here's your forwarded quote:
"I learned to love someone with all my life... But there came a point when I got tired, not of loving but of sacrificing all that I have. Then a thought came to my mind... I have given everything but have received nothing but pain and tears in return. is this enough to prove that I really love that person? Or is it a sign telling me to stop sacrificing and learn to love myself a little more?"
Here is what I have to say...
First, you don't have the right to tell me that you have loved with all of your life. God knows how long I have waited for you to act a little more mature. A little more responsible. Heck, all I am asking was for you to show that I am important for you. I am important than playing DOTA or going out with your friends. I waited for you to appreciate the things that I have done. I waited for almost a year for you to change and act better. But with the time I gave you, you did nothing but to please your ego. I never felt that love that you are saying. I never felt important when I am with you. Honestly, you made me feel like trash. You walk ahead of me, never gave any concern when I lost a relative, and you never appreciated everything that I did for you. Even a simple letter that I was asking from you was not realized. Talk about effort? You have NONE.
If you didn't get tired of loving, well, I did. With the time that you made me wait for you, figuratively and literally, anyone would get tired. Anyone in my position would eventually stop. I should know. I tried to hold on, but you kept pushing me away.
Now, you are saying that you have given everything and received nothing but tears? WTF! those are the exact words that I should be ranting at this moment. You definitely know what I mean. Now, you are asking me to wait? Oh come on! I might be in love with you but that does not keep me away from my senses. I did love you. But I also love MYSELF.
You loved no one but yourself. Even your parents, (oh I miss them so much) would agree with me. You are a brat. You are inconsiderate. You have your own good qualities but all of them are used for your own benefit. Just try to grow up. Don't act like a damsel in distress. That should have been my role. From the start of this relationship, we have exchanged part. You act childish most of the times. You rant more than I do and the list would go on.
WTF did I do to you to tell me that it was my fault why you are like this? You try to ruin your life because of what happend? WTF! WTF! WTF! If you really wanted that relationship then you shoould have exerted a little effort. And what did you just tell me? When you felt that we are about to break up, you reserved girls? Wow! You just dig a hole for yourself! before, I felt guilty. But not any more. You dont have the right to make me feel like trash. Just because you are one, does not mean you should also treat others that way. You have a great family. Something that I would want to have. They are the ones that kept me holding on. But I hope, they understand why I had to do it. I no longer care what you want to say. Bullshit happens. Our time is done.
Here's your forwarded quote:
"I learned to love someone with all my life... But there came a point when I got tired, not of loving but of sacrificing all that I have. Then a thought came to my mind... I have given everything but have received nothing but pain and tears in return. is this enough to prove that I really love that person? Or is it a sign telling me to stop sacrificing and learn to love myself a little more?"
Here is what I have to say...
First, you don't have the right to tell me that you have loved with all of your life. God knows how long I have waited for you to act a little more mature. A little more responsible. Heck, all I am asking was for you to show that I am important for you. I am important than playing DOTA or going out with your friends. I waited for you to appreciate the things that I have done. I waited for almost a year for you to change and act better. But with the time I gave you, you did nothing but to please your ego. I never felt that love that you are saying. I never felt important when I am with you. Honestly, you made me feel like trash. You walk ahead of me, never gave any concern when I lost a relative, and you never appreciated everything that I did for you. Even a simple letter that I was asking from you was not realized. Talk about effort? You have NONE.
If you didn't get tired of loving, well, I did. With the time that you made me wait for you, figuratively and literally, anyone would get tired. Anyone in my position would eventually stop. I should know. I tried to hold on, but you kept pushing me away.
Now, you are saying that you have given everything and received nothing but tears? WTF! those are the exact words that I should be ranting at this moment. You definitely know what I mean. Now, you are asking me to wait? Oh come on! I might be in love with you but that does not keep me away from my senses. I did love you. But I also love MYSELF.
You loved no one but yourself. Even your parents, (oh I miss them so much) would agree with me. You are a brat. You are inconsiderate. You have your own good qualities but all of them are used for your own benefit. Just try to grow up. Don't act like a damsel in distress. That should have been my role. From the start of this relationship, we have exchanged part. You act childish most of the times. You rant more than I do and the list would go on.
WTF did I do to you to tell me that it was my fault why you are like this? You try to ruin your life because of what happend? WTF! WTF! WTF! If you really wanted that relationship then you shoould have exerted a little effort. And what did you just tell me? When you felt that we are about to break up, you reserved girls? Wow! You just dig a hole for yourself! before, I felt guilty. But not any more. You dont have the right to make me feel like trash. Just because you are one, does not mean you should also treat others that way. You have a great family. Something that I would want to have. They are the ones that kept me holding on. But I hope, they understand why I had to do it. I no longer care what you want to say. Bullshit happens. Our time is done.
Things I've Learned On The Month Of Love
> Show your concern. But, don't push it. Otherwise, it will ricochet back onto you. Voice it out. If it's not heeded, then be content with the thought that you have made it known. You have to remember that your concern may not be of value to the other person. If you don't want to hear nonsensical arguments for the sake of arguing, drop it. You've said it and that's enough.
> Just because you think of that person most of your times does not necessarily mean it will be reciprocated the same way. Just because you do so does not also mean you are asking for the same thing. You can have the person wander in your mind all throughout the day or not all. No one really cares. What goes on in your mind is your own personal choice.
> Be careful for what you wish for. You might get it.
> Love yourself. You will only feel bad about yourself when you allow people to do so. You have to remember that when everybody turns their back and leave you, there's no one to depend to but YOURSELF.
> Learn to wait. If something belongs to you, it will be yours. You need not rush. Besides, only fools rush in. Patience is still a virtue.
> Cast off "to whom much is given, much is expected". When you expect while you give, you are opening yourself to the greatest chances of being wounded and hurt. When you give, give without asking and even hoping for anything in return.If it is appreciated, be thankful. However, if you give and you think you give for nothing, be thankful still. Bear in mind that givers are blessed.
> When in a relationship, know your part. Function according to how, when and why you should. Learn to do things without being told so. Know your bounds, too.
> What usually mark the mind are those thoughtful random and small consistent acts of sweetness.
> Pride is a capital sin. Learn humility.
> "The higher you build walls around your heart, the harder you fall when someone tears them down."
> "People need loving the most when they deserve it the least."
> "The way to love anything is to realize it might be lost." Every man is afraid of something. That's how you know if he loves you … if he's afraid to lose you.
> Never lie. You lie by either omission or commission. Speak the truth, no matter how much it might hurt.
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